A beautiful end to a roller coaster of a journey!

         Since my last post i am glad to say that i am not the same person who i was two weeks ago! So many things have changed around me i feel the difference but i don't know what to make of it. I think it is because of Junpyo or rather the whole of F4 because before them i wasn't hopeful or in "dreamland" i was very conscious of reality but they gave me hope and wishes and an alternate world with dreams and love! Now that they are gone i am left here in this beautiful world all alone with no one to make me smile at the end of the day, no one to give me more hope or make me want to wish any longer! There is no one to make me cry but at the same time make me feel so much better after my tears dry. Without them, i feel like i have no purpose, no dreams, no connection with life. I feel like a big part of me is missing and i don't know how to feel this void space.

         I find myself sitting down and wishing i had a love like that! Before, i had come to the real conclusion that love that is in the movies and that it does not exist! I had come to terms with the fact that i may never see anything like that ever! Now i just wish, hope, pray and beg that it does exist! I dream of the day that i will have something like that! At the back of my mind, i know that it is not true and in this day and age, there is no such thing that exists! Am i naive for wanting something so beautiful for myself? Am i just lying to myself? I probably am but if i don't make myself feel better who will? If i don't give myself hopes and dreams nobody else can! Boys over Flowers is now gone and i may be lost for a while but i know that i will survive the important thing here is that it taught me more than i expected to be taught in one million lifetimes! It taught me that love is a beautiful thing and embracing it is the hard part people are just scared of getting hurt! Just as i was but once you get past all the hurt and the pain and the fear, everything becomes beautiful and true. It becomes almost unreal and out of this world and most of the time, people don't understand what they feel so they run the other way when it happens to them not knowing that they are getting away from the most beautiful thing in their lives!

  Junpyo and Jandi found that beauty and i know that everybody else can have it they just don't know what they have till its gone! So if you think you have something good going for you embrace it and destiny and fate take its course!
and thats just LIFE AS WE KNOW IT! =*

MY NEW OBSESSION! JUNPYO-NIZED!!!

         I'm so sorry i have not been blogging! i have been really busy and everything and everyday gets crazier than i planned for. Aside from my everlasting obsession with Spanish Soap Operas, i am now officially Junpyo-nized!! I am moving to South Korea to find Junpyo,Yun Jihu, Yijeong and Wubin but mostly the first three! my new obsession is none other that BOYS OVER FLOWERS!!!

    Yijeong, Wubin, Gu Junpyo and Yun Jihu respectively in this picture! I know they look like women but you have to admit don't you just want to eat them up!!! Yijeong (first one on the far left) is my favorite though he is a WOMANIZER in this film! Ok, generally, they are the rich upper class society boys who run the show and take what they want or rather they have everything they want already!!! They are the F4 i just found out that F4 stands for "Flower Four" and don't they just look like flowers?!!! I mean sexy, beautiful flowers!! So, Yijeong is the son and the heir of the most famous potter in Seoul and if i may say the SEXIEST boy in Seoul! His family also owns the biggest and most prestigious museum. His father is a womanizer who sleeps with his students hence the reason for Yijeong's inability to COMMIT! Next is Wubin (note, i'm saving the best for last!) he is the son of a wealthy contractor who owns the biggest construction company in Seoul. It is also said that they have underground ties with the mafia. Then, Gu Junpyo, leader of the F4 and the cruelest, most rigid, heartless, wealthiest member of the F4! He is heir to the Shinhwa Group owners of a multinational hotel and the Shinhwa Group of schools reserved for the wealthy kids of society! Finally, the sweetest, most talented, loving and swagalicious member of the F4, Yun Jihu. He is the grandson of the former President of South Korea and his family owns a European football club, a few museums and a company i think. However, his parents died in a car crash in which he was the only survivor and he hasn't been in touch with his grandfather since they died. He thinks his grandfather blames him for their death. The four are very wrong alone but as the F4 they are a force to reckon with!!!

       Finally for the best part! You see the girl in the middle of Gu Junpyo and Yun Jihu? That's Geum Jandi! The only poor kid in Shinhwa High because she got a scholarship there after saving a boy who tried to commit suicide because of the F4 trying to bully him! The only person who ever stood up to the F4 and the only person who was ever able to TAME the F4! You see Gu .Junpyo and Yun Jihu over there? Well they are both in love with her! =) YES! I aint kidding! At first, she was in love with Yun Jihu i mean i don't see why not, but he was in love with some model and followed her to France! While he was gone, Geum Jandi had already started dating Gu Junpyo and was starting to have deep feelings for him! Junpyo was the sweetest, most caring but at the same time very distant and still a little rude! When Yun Jihu came back, after the model he was in love with got engaged to someone else, he started to have feelings for Jandi though it was too late! I cannot state everything that happened but generally, Jandi and Junpyo break up because he caught her kissing Jihu and they got back together after a long period of fighting and competing for Jandi's love! After getting back together and going on sweet dates, kissing for the first time and even contemplating professing love for one another, Junpyo's mother butts in and forces them to break up because "Jandi is not good enough for Junpyo" because she is poor!
       The witch gives them such a hard time and the death of Junpyo's father was the last straw, Junpyo had to follow his mother's blackmails and take over his father's life long work and leave Jandi. All this time, Jihu stood by Jandi took care of her, made sure she always smiled and gave her all the love and attention he believed she deserved and in the process fell deeper n love with her! His love is not reciprocated though because Jandi is still very much in love Junpyo even after everything he has done to her! Later, Junpyo comes back to Seoul, Jihu got a cut hair cut, Yijeong is falling in love with Gaeul, Jandi's best friend, and Wubin is still the same! On Junpyo's birthday, his mother announces his engagement to Jaegeyong, the daughter of their most prominent partners. This breaks Jandi's heart especially the fact that Junpyo agrees to marry her! Her parents move out to go look for work elsewhere, she moves into a rooftop apartment, Junpyo seems to want her back so he moves into the room right next to her and Jihu continues to love her and looks like he is even contemplating telling her! Though i want Junpyo and Jandi to be together, it looks like Jaegeyong is going to be a threat! I also don't want Jihu to suffer and Yijeong is in a dilemma between his first childhood love and Gaeul and loving in any way! What is going to happen? I DON'T KNOW!!! and i can't  wait until Monday to watch the rest of it! One thing is for certain, it's CRAZY!!! and i'm going to miss it A LOT when it ends seeing as there are only 25 episodes and i am on episode 18! I am going to try and keep you updated coz im sure you love it now just as much as i do!
   and that's just LIFE AS I KNOW IT!!! =)