IT'S WEDDING SEASON AGAIN!!!!!!

        Well the fact that i have not had a weekend in forever has been the worst part of my semester hence the lack of time to keep updating my blog! So what's new? In th name of love is finally finished! i started a new soap called Mar De Amor (Sea of Love) and it's going ok but the best news yet is that it is wedding season again! the good thing with knowing many people is you get invited to many events! For it's the weddings i love! So after a long HORRIBLE exam yesterday i ended up going for a wedding and as usual i had to get my hair done and get the best outfit in the least amount of time possible but the end result was AMAZING (as usual!) and it was perfect rehab for getting over my exams and everything that has been going on this year plus it was a mixed wedding meaning there were SEXY, tight ass, luscious lip Somali guys all of which were from my tribe! I know yeah!
         The best opportunity to actually get a real relationship but too bad there were one million grandmothers around and none of us could make any moves but i did see one who was worth the time of day and his ass!!! OMG!!!! it was the best sight in the world and he kept smiling at me so i guess that means that he was thinking the same thing about me but then again he was probably wondering why this weird chick was staring at him so much!!!!! =O but i enjoyed myself my waist is still in pain because of all the dancing and running around! I was in a jungle red dress and gold heels! and a gold belt at the empire waist and my hair was in perfect curls and my lips were as usual glamorous in red!!! its a wonder this guy was drooling all over me!!! ;)  it was just the best way to get over the stress of the pat weeks and the yet to begin stress from the next weeks. i love weddings and i hope i get to have more of them to attend and hopefully my own! Oh by the way, Ida Odinga was there and the Permanent Secretary i didn't catch her name and the MP for Wajir North   and his wife and a few more people i didn't bother to note! it was an amazing night although i'm still hangover because we got home at about 4:30 and could sleep because my dad was arriving from Paris at about that time and you know what that means PRESENT TIME!!!!
For now thats just LIFE AS I KNOW IT! =*

P.S I Love You

"if i kiss you, it will be the end of life as i know it"
Gerry told Holly on the first day they met!

     Do you ever feel like you try so hard for so long to convince yourself of something and then in just minutes you don't think its the best thing to believe in anymore? Well iv spent half of my life trying to convince myself that love does not exist and that all it does is lead to pain and suffering! A few years ago, i was still thinking the same thing! See the funny thing is i pretend i don't believe in love but i have watched almost every romance movie known to man and every Spanish soap opera ever created but still in the corner of my mind i convinced myself that it was all a lie! This was until i watched one of the best romance movie EVER "P.S i love you" by Hillary Swank and Gerald Butler!

       You see, Gerry (Gerald Butler) was a free spirited man with a sexy Irish accent and Holly was the love of his life! But he died from a brain tumor and he left a string of letters that would come at the right time to help Holly cope with his death. They say nobody knows you as well as the love of your life and the only person who could help her through her grief was the one person who was gone! At the end of every letter he never failed to say "P.S- I Love You." He didn't want her to feel alone, he wanted her to try things that she wouldn't do otherwise just like when he was alive. He told her that he wanted het to be the girl he met on that road full of life, spirit, ideas and dreams! He took her down memory lane and showed her how with each day that passed he loved her and cared for her and how she made him the best man he could be! But now he was gone and she needed to move on and continue her life. He reminded her of the great times they spent together but he also reminded her that she needed to make her own memories without him!

    I will never forget in the last letter he told her that she was the best thing that ever happened to him but he was just a chapter in her life and she needed to make more happier and better chapters because he will always love her no matter what! He said that she didn't need him anymore and that it was time to say goodbye, that she will love again she should look out for the signs! You know we waste too much time worrying about our plans and our future and being angry at the little things like who left the toilet seat up or who wore my clothes that we forget to just stop and smell the roses! life is too short to be racing through it not caring what happens as long as time just goes by and finally ends without us having something important to show for our days spent on earth! Gerry has a lot to be grateful for he met the love of his life and wasted no time in marrying her and making the best out of what they had! His love was so great that even in death he didn't leave her side until she was ready to walk alone! Does love like this exist today? I don't know but i know one thing for sure! If we don't try or risk everything to gain more than we can possibly imagine, then we might never know if it's out there! So i don't believe that love is the enemy anymore and i hope to God that someday i will have a love as strong and pure as the love that Gerry and Holly felt for each other. I am not going to be scared anymore because that is what i was, scared, of the pain, the hurt, the rejection but thats different now! Gerry didn't only help Holly survive his death, he helped her find purpose and direction in a world that seemed lost and hard without him. He helped her get up from that miserable hole she fell in and encouraged her to walk again and find a new life with hope and love even after she wanted to die and join him and end all her suffering. He not only held her hand he held mine as well and every other woman who had doubts about love and gave me the courage to stand up and have faith! I know i'll find my Gerry and i know when the time comes i will take the risk and be happy!
         and that's just LIFE AS WE KNOW IT! =)

.A Long day but completely worth it once i saw my pals!!!

     do you ever feel like this day is the worst day of my life??? i feel like that all the time but i see these faces here and my day gets so much better! our crazy sex talks, our secret crushes and not to mention the endless times we learn something new about each other! i cant imagine a day without them! its virtually impossible! i mean if didn't get to see at least one of them once a day i would go MAD!!!!
       they have been there for me through the worst and stood by me at times when i had some of the best                                                    
times of my life! i will never forget the first concert we went for! we screamed so much we lost our voices! And remember the Spanish festival???? the best time EVER!!!! i mean its not everyday you get kissed one million times by a SEXYISH Spanish GUITARIST!!!!!!! either way the point is some of my best memories are with you guys! thanks Terry for showing me how amazing it is to blog about my boring life and for teaching how to be the best person i can be without taking bullshit from people who don't matter! thanks everyone for showing what its like to a fun person to be with! without you i would probably still be glum and sad!!! I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!! and i wouldn't change a single day we have had together
and thats LIFE AS I KNOW IT!!!! =* <3

AWESOME soaps this week!

                                                                                       

          OMG! these soaps are going to kill me some time soon! I mean the drama! Juan Miguel the sexy man holding the apple yeah!!!! isn't he such a beauty! I mean i can stare at him all night and all night long! Who knew Cuban men were so SEXY!!!! anyway, today don't mess with an angel was off the hook! My favorite part was when he grabbed Marichuy and cockily said "i'm going to dance with my WIFE!" i would kill to hear him say that to me! Marichuy watch out coz i'm coming to get my man!!!! what? a girl can dream! 

       

        I love my soap operas they keep me alert and always expecting something! i never realized how important they were until i found myself relying on them for some form of adventure in my life! Its like reading a book! you get to travel, fall in love, feel pain, get hurt and be happy all from the comfort of your living room or in this case my bedroom! what would i do without getting my daily dose of romance and happiness from my William Levy? not to mention the extremely romantic Eric Elias and my poetic and incredibly cute Inaki Ipparagire! i would be bitter and sad without them! which says a lot coz i'm genuinely a sweet and nice person i would to think! 

        also, lets not forget Emiliano finally acting like a man and defending himself against the witch Romena! if you are reading this and you dont understand a thing i am saying i'm sorry coz i would love to explain everything but it would take FOREVER!!!!!! for those who understand what i'm saying, i npw this sounds crazy but i kinda want Paloma to stay with Gabriel! I mean he seems to be more worthy of love and affection not only coz he is going to die but also coz well his eyes are actually open! 

        
             well with that, the love and stories in these soaps keep me grounded and happy in a sense! when im watching these things i feel like i am actually there with them, feeling what they are feeling! i guess that is just      
  LIFE AS WE KNOW IT!

LIFE IS A BITCH!!!

          Do you ever ask yourself why certain things happen in life? I mean actually sitting down and pondering for hours and hours on what has already happened to you and what you plan on doing for what is happening right now! Lately i have been finding myself in this situation more than usual! I don't want to be at war with my family and frankly i find all this very immature! What will any of us gain if we decide not to ever talk to each other!? It hurts me to bits being the one who started all this but was i to stand there and see all my efforts gone to waste? All my hard work, all my energy, all the things i have done to make this one person happy? I know that when you do something it is supposed to be for you but everything i have done so far has been to make him happy to at least reassure him that even if he has problems in th outside world i am here to help him with everything else. keep the fort down and make sure everything is okay! I have had no problem with helping around and staying around but what bothers me is the fact that i will do all these things and my efforts will still not be realized!
            But then again maybe he sees it as a responsibility for me to do all the things i so willingly do out of love and sometimes fear but i do them anyway without giving any conditions. I know i'm supposed to say sorry but this will mean that it is okay for him to take me for granted! Maybe i'm afraid that if i forgive i will have nothing left to hold against him anymore after i have held a grudge against him all these years it has become part of me! I just don't know how to forgive him! I thought he changed and actually cared about what happens to me but i guess i was wrong! All he cares about is looking good in front of his friends! He doesn't care about how hard i work and that is what i am going to stick to! I'm going to hold my ground until such a time when i think I'm ready to face him and tell him everything i feel!
and thats just LIFE AS I KNOW IT!