P.S I Love You

"if i kiss you, it will be the end of life as i know it"
Gerry told Holly on the first day they met!

     Do you ever feel like you try so hard for so long to convince yourself of something and then in just minutes you don't think its the best thing to believe in anymore? Well iv spent half of my life trying to convince myself that love does not exist and that all it does is lead to pain and suffering! A few years ago, i was still thinking the same thing! See the funny thing is i pretend i don't believe in love but i have watched almost every romance movie known to man and every Spanish soap opera ever created but still in the corner of my mind i convinced myself that it was all a lie! This was until i watched one of the best romance movie EVER "P.S i love you" by Hillary Swank and Gerald Butler!

       You see, Gerry (Gerald Butler) was a free spirited man with a sexy Irish accent and Holly was the love of his life! But he died from a brain tumor and he left a string of letters that would come at the right time to help Holly cope with his death. They say nobody knows you as well as the love of your life and the only person who could help her through her grief was the one person who was gone! At the end of every letter he never failed to say "P.S- I Love You." He didn't want her to feel alone, he wanted her to try things that she wouldn't do otherwise just like when he was alive. He told her that he wanted het to be the girl he met on that road full of life, spirit, ideas and dreams! He took her down memory lane and showed her how with each day that passed he loved her and cared for her and how she made him the best man he could be! But now he was gone and she needed to move on and continue her life. He reminded her of the great times they spent together but he also reminded her that she needed to make her own memories without him!

    I will never forget in the last letter he told her that she was the best thing that ever happened to him but he was just a chapter in her life and she needed to make more happier and better chapters because he will always love her no matter what! He said that she didn't need him anymore and that it was time to say goodbye, that she will love again she should look out for the signs! You know we waste too much time worrying about our plans and our future and being angry at the little things like who left the toilet seat up or who wore my clothes that we forget to just stop and smell the roses! life is too short to be racing through it not caring what happens as long as time just goes by and finally ends without us having something important to show for our days spent on earth! Gerry has a lot to be grateful for he met the love of his life and wasted no time in marrying her and making the best out of what they had! His love was so great that even in death he didn't leave her side until she was ready to walk alone! Does love like this exist today? I don't know but i know one thing for sure! If we don't try or risk everything to gain more than we can possibly imagine, then we might never know if it's out there! So i don't believe that love is the enemy anymore and i hope to God that someday i will have a love as strong and pure as the love that Gerry and Holly felt for each other. I am not going to be scared anymore because that is what i was, scared, of the pain, the hurt, the rejection but thats different now! Gerry didn't only help Holly survive his death, he helped her find purpose and direction in a world that seemed lost and hard without him. He helped her get up from that miserable hole she fell in and encouraged her to walk again and find a new life with hope and love even after she wanted to die and join him and end all her suffering. He not only held her hand he held mine as well and every other woman who had doubts about love and gave me the courage to stand up and have faith! I know i'll find my Gerry and i know when the time comes i will take the risk and be happy!
         and that's just LIFE AS WE KNOW IT! =)